Depression

With depression comes waves of good and bad times. The goal of medication and therapy is to have less bad times and to be able to manage them better when they do come. Because it is certain they will come. Those who do not understand believe we are sad…a lot. But we know it is beyond sadness we are feeling. We have come to hear certain phrases from people such as... She/ he is: “too emotional” “crying again” “sad” “in a bad mood” “overreacting” You need to know what we are dealing with is beyond sadness. We are not sad again or crying again. We are deeply feeling the loss of ourselves. The inability to control due to chemical imbalances. During these times we are not sad…we are fighting for our lives. Fighting to feel “normal” again. To make it through a day without crying. Tired of wearing our masks to make it through the day. Tired of trying to be a good friend, employee, family member, etc. Tired of being depressed and going through the cycles. Getting out of bed ...

Most people with depression have triggers. I was unable to completely identify mine until more recently. I have been in counseling this time for over two years. I started back up after a huge break-up. I was devastated to say the least. I wanted to stop the negative behaviors I knew I had which were affecting my life. I just did not know how. I uncovered even more throughout the years. Counseling will be discussed more in another post… History plays into triggers. Why depression does have a chemical component, there is usually an environmental component as well. Did you know during brain development…even in the womb…the brain will “re-wire” to adapt to the environment? Such is the case for me. I am unsure the complete environment while I was in the womb. I know my father was an alcoholic. My mother smoked…and I am not sure what else. There was a toddler in the house. The relationship between my mother and father was not the best. I know shortly after I was born my mother left. M...